hmm. a tv program influenced me again. a local one.

A Singapore couple in their 40s/50s gave up everything they had in SG, their biz & house and went to Phillipines to volunteer wholeheartedly. I was really surprised to know that and was really proud that there are really kind souls in SG who are willing to help others with all the effort they have.

Watching those Fillipinos who have to live in those slumps (which were reported that the average life there is 45 years old) & earning $$ by collecting rubbish (they are called scavengers) and risking their lives to climb up to the rubbish trucks really make my tears flow. The kids living there who have to start doing this "job" can be as young as 4 or 5 years old? No kidding or pehaps they looked small cos of malnutrition.

They have to live on "leftovers" bot from those who collected in restaurants & before consuming, clean with water which they have to purchase daily and with the electricity bills paying on credit. The couple's goals at first were to find people with the potential of doing biz & teach them to roll $$ and also to create more jobs there. However, it was hard as the priority there is to fill their family members' stomach.

There was a grandma in 50s/60s who said that she wished she could just jump into the river but she pity her children/grandchildren. The grandma started crying and so was the lady (of the nice couple).  She treated everyone like her own family and feel for them. I started sobbing too. And there was this really obedient 17 yr old kid who only has his grandma left. He "risk" his life everyday to collect & sell rubbish. He told the host, if he were to go astray, how is his grandma going to live? *sobs*

After saying so much, what I wish is, to make a pledge. I don't know when I can be that selfishless (like the couple) to the extent of putting down many things in life and helping the needy with everything. But, at least, till the day reach, i won't want to waste my $$ on unnecessary things when there are humans on the other side of earth suffering like this. In additon, the natural disasters which just happened. I hope Japan, Thailand etc can recover fast & the people there are so much stronger than us. I hope my $$ in future can be of really good use. If, i have no family to feed... & if i can be healthy always...

I, too will get envious when i saw "rich" people carrying/wearing designers' bag or clothes. & in fact, though i do have the $$ to actually purchase maybe 1 LV/Gucci bag per year, I have been suppressing myself. So what? some normal branded bags have similar designs too. Though quality does differs but how long does a woman really carry the same bag/wears the same clothes? I really really think most people buy for the brand, & for the feel of being "upper class"? otherwise, y not just buy the imitation goods? there are really those which almost look and "feel" the same as the real ones... ask yourself... what can u really brag about? if u, as a human goes for luxury but neglect all those ard u?

People may say me back, i wasted $$ on music related stuff too. yea... that's my way of relieving my stress and to be happier? I do suppress when i really wish to go for concerts. its like maybe 2 or 3 years once? & believe me, i only love & support idols who have great characters and are of good influence to the public. For e.g. Jam-mers always donate in the name of Jam. & for a $100 concert to a $5k bag... which is more wasteful?

all right, discard all the long-winded. I just hope that there are more people like the couple. & that the poor can get richer, & the rich gets kinder. No, everyone should be nice, be it poor or rich.  At least, have conscience. 

Its another new year!! First of all, i need to apologise to this blog for neglecting it so long & always came back to vent my negative emotions...

yah... again but i need to type at least a few resolutions to keep myself going!!

woke up seeing that idiot cum freeloader occupy my TV!! missed my drama... nvm... then i looked at our bills... plus looked at him... my anger went up to the max (not really) & i think i really can go crazy if our situation continues like this. Dad's savings definitely depleting & i dunno hw long can it last...

my heart is painful when i heard mum complaining about her feet & i realli hope she also can retire & enjoy life soon... i blame myself for being so incapable, for not earning more... but honestly, i also blamed why i hv such a bro & y my parents don't know how to communicate & be stern to him, asking him to at least contribute to our bills? he has not even give household allowance!! & the hse is like a hotel to him? bathe & slp here... what a heavenly deal for him... arse!!

Ok i even vented in facebk... i think its enuff & hopefully, those idiots got the hints...

NVM, 2011 RESOLUTIONS setting time...

1) try to be happy & healthy (exercise, do stuff i like & hang out more with positive pple)

2) tame down my temper & be better (esp to my parents)... & be calmer + wiser when making decisions...

3) dun get cheated & get bullied again!!

4) think of how to turn things around... & improve on our current situation before our accounts are really going down like mad. (talk to mum, ask her to show him bills? got use ma?) shits... how?

5) get $$, quit the "no progress" job, strive hard on the "new" job (at least try for 6 mths & get the license 1st) before finding a really suitable perm job.

6) build up own social circle & learn how to network with people...

7) start on driving lessons? (i need a private teacher who teaches auto only, intro pls?)

8) though the fortune teller said i shouldn't just let fate pass by like that, but i can't force the right guy to appear, right? however, i'll try to be more friendly & less shy LOL.

9) continue on my jap lessons & try to really use it & make jap friends so can communicate & improve.

10) travel!! 2 countries: Taiwan/Australia/Japan

11) change image (take care of my body, skin & hair) & collect nicer clothes/accessories/shoes + throw/give away those unwanted stuff!!

12) pack my stuff!! organize EVERYTHING!! be clean on both the outside & inside!!

I think got more but for the moment, i shall stop 1st... cos the above are those i REALLY REALLY WANT to accomplish this year... LAO TIAN YEYE!! PLS HELP ME!! >.< GANBATTE!!

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!! = CHANGE!!

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!! = CHANGE!!

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!! = CHANGE!!

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!! = CHANGE!!

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!! = CHANGE!!

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!! = CHANGE!!

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!! = CHANGE!!

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!! = CHANGE!!

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!! = CHANGE!!

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!! = CHANGE!!

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!! = CHANGE!!

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!! = CHANGE!!

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!! = CHANGE!!

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!! = CHANGE!!

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!! = CHANGE!!

Dear Friends,

I have to confess something which i dislike.

I hope u have the courtesy to fling out your purse/wallet not at all times, but at least sometimes when footing the bills. I mean, i'm not your bf. & i don't even have one to dote on me.

I dun mind always being the "auto" one to foot 1st. But, at least, do remember to return AUTOMATICALLY as I find it quite awkward to ask by mouth.

I know it may not be on purpose (if u noe u r forgetful, do it 1st ). Nonethelss, do think if almost all my girl friends do the same to me (it happened for a period before), 1st, i'll be broke, 2nd, its rather frustrating when simlar scenario repeats again & again.

If you think i am stingy, yes, i am. & i am not rich, fyi. I dun mind giving a treat once in a while. But, on my own will. So again, lets all be polite, graceful and thoughtful!! YEAH!!

hehe new chinese blog... so fun =.=

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oh ya & HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!

so long since i visited my dear blog.

this time is becos i feel nothing.

tats dead shit. nothing = no feelings = not human!!

all right. i noe i am scaring myself. but i have been feeling aimless for VERY LONG.

& just now, from the program Kang Xi, i read my own palm & discovered......

i will divorce in future =( so dun get married better?? maybe wun even have a partner lol. however, tats not my point (thou i'm wooried hee.)...

the point is... CHANGE... i dun tink i have changed. & its the 2nd time i'm watching <CHANGE> --> i mean the jap drama starring Kimuya Takuya (love)!!

& y is everyone changing but me? so damn wierd... am i a stone or something?

even ex-colls came back to our company. lol. & i'm still sitting there =.=

sometimes, i just hope that there is someone who can stand by me... tats all... however, i tink i have to be more realistic & stop being choosy & lazy... tats my conclusion for the night.

off to study jap... yeah... at 12.08 am!!